"Celestial"- Day 26

The one on the left. If "celestial" can mean anything related to heaven, she is it. She is the reason I am how I am with my own daughter, and I know it. I don't know why, nor do two shrinks, I can't and haven't gotten over it.

It has been more than 25 years. Most people don't know but I had it calculate to the exact date that my own daughter would have to live to in order to live longer than she did. It is getting easier now that I see my own daughter turning into an adult, but I cannot fathom what her parents went through and live with every single day, and they are together and as strong as ever. It is all anyone could dream of in a relationship.

Ponder- Day 4

...I don't think I will ever get over the loss...& I've wondered & been asked why it's so overwhelming 25 years later & I don't know why. I carry the fear through my own child & at times feel sorry for her. I can't see her at what would have been 43 today. I still see 16 & feel it like it was yesterday. Peace & <3 & I hope you know no pain.