"Pearl"- Day 5

What is the pearl of wisdom you wish you had grasped long before you did? Maybe "Do unto others...?" "This to shall pass?""Family first?" So many if I had time to reflect. And, as I think, I hear my mother's voice every time.

"Exhale"- Day 4

A rainy Saturday, just him, nothing we have to do, a few things we want to do. Dinner out that I can justify because I bought a certificate through a school fundraiser. The mental break I needed. Only not responding to emails from two people til Monday. I was busy exhaling, sorry I couldn't get back to you. What is your excuse for never getting back to me or anyone? Exhaling all week? Grrrrr. Exhale. Drink coffee. Kiss him. Pin things. Plan weekend away in two weeks. Peace xo.

Cyclical- Day 3

Relationships. They can go through their good times, their bad times, their really good times, their really bad times. Then there are those times that for whatever reason you fall more in love with each other, and it is obvious. No explanation one can think of, one probably feeds off of the other, and maybe there is an explanation but one is too closed off to verbally express why, he (we will call it "he" haha) shows it in every way he can. You are left hoping it is sincere, hoping it isn't a cover or redemption for  a wrong you don't know about, hoping it will be a cycle that will forever be a part of growing old together, where you accept each others' aging, physical, mental and emotional changes, and challenges from children to work to life. I don't know why he is there right now, but I know what I hope.

Day 2-"Flicker"

Every week I get something like this from my college girl, giving me a flicker of belief that she still needs mom; it also makes me realize things I didn't think I needed to teach her but obviously did.

"Nostalgia"- Month 10, Day 1

I will forever treasure the heart shaped rock my son put in the prettiest box he could find when he was about 3 or 4 years old, it is without a  doubt one of my most prized possessions and is indicative of the sweet soul that he is, even at age 16.

Day 30- "Surrender..."

& until I get that job I surrender to the politics, complexities & treatable but constantly exacerbated conundrums that has become my days...

Day 29- "Sometimes I Dream"

& in it I go to work somewhere I believe in  100% every day, challenged & appreciated, paid for the work I do & doing the work I'm paid for by job description. Yeah, for now it's a dream...